4th day of holiday
but
i am still busy
everyday
=.=


I still don't know what elective to choose!!

zzz
help!!

Happy Holidays to me!!

haha

after exams;)
but not as free as i thought
i've so so many more things to do

lol

today
washed clothes
washed shoes
packed things
but all halfway lol
em
less than half i mean

haha!

by the way
i'll be leaving to Sydney on the 21st Nov
then
i'll be going to Gold Coast and Brisbane
then back to Malaysia on the 13th Dec
that's why
i've so many things to do now!!

;)
>.<


i need to re-enrol for next sem
one elective
which i still don't know what to take
i came across this unit [website authoring] from Faculty of Information Technology
hmm
sounds interesting
but
i'm still considering

=.=

i still don't have enough sleep

zzz

[edited this post]

haha!

yup
exam's over!
so
relaxing now

;)

had two papers today
some of you may not know
my these two exams were clash exams

some more
both are 3-hours

>.<
so
i wasn't allowed to leave the exam hall in between
and
i had to bring my own lunch

xw cooked my lunch;)
early in the morning since i wanted to catch the 7.40 am train
haha
thanks a lot xw!

today's exam was tiring
imagine
reading and writing for almost 7 hours

and you know what
because my afternoon's paper has 30 minutes reading time
yet all the other students in the exam hall theirs have 10 minutes only
so
my exam ended 20 minutes later than theirs
and i was left alone in the exam hall
but with the invigilators of course!
imagine
left me only
in an exam hall accommodating almost a thousand of students

>.<
that was
cool?!
lol
i think
haha!


Exam's over!
finally
when i handed in my last paper
at 6 pm sharp

i hopped down the stairs
and headed straight to the train station
;)

in the train
i wanted to laugh
too happy
but
i didn't
later people think i'm crazy

lol!


Exam period was indeed tough
i was so tired
and so exhausted
but thanks lots to all of them who smsed me;)
and those who supported me in any ways
and also the prayers
they really encouraged me
and gave me energy to move on
a lot
a lot


Thanks God for being with me through these days

;)

最近都没update
没时间
还有五天就考试

等考完试
我再update吧
；）


我
很好

只是
特别累而已

最近赶 assignment
本来想快点做完
然后做一些自己想做的事情
可是
心
还是会不想做
脑袋
它告诉我它很累
唔
真没力气
我只想出去走走

assignment
赶是会赶完
只是
我赶不上时间


有时候
我多么想去珍惜时间的每一分每一秒
却发现
我总是被时间拖着走
还来不及完成
本来说好要完成的东西
我
却被时间拖走了

时间
就这样
破碎了
就在我面前

剩下的是
我永远都捡不起来的
时间碎片

exam timetable is out!
heart beating
fast
why?



Managerial Communication then Strategic Management then Introduction to Tourism then Marketing Law

...

下午
睡了四小时
很累
这几天
睡眠不足

唔
明天就 week 9 了
exam timetable 星期四出
这么快!!! 是我第一个反应
其实
不会快
都说是 week 9 了

快的只是时间

每过一天
我就少了一天
这
并不重要
重要的是我怎么走过每一天


曾经
我以为
努力
是为了保证自己的前程
是为了做一个成功的人
是为了实现梦想
人都以为这样人生就会有意义
我
也曾是这么想的
我想
人都是这么想的吧

然后才发现
这些
都是自私的
人生自私的意义

人啊人
什么时候才觉悟
跟随上帝才是人生的意义啊

人都以为
不做坏事就 okay 了
我也曾是这么想的
原来
人
还要做对人

这世界
是邪恶的
不是能够 survive 在这邪恶的世界里最重要
我们还要懂得分辨对于错
。。。


我的每一天
要为了上帝而活!!!

我
恋上回忆?

21st Part II

Birthday part II;)


yesterday i woke up at 11 something am???
can't remember

then did some stuff

xw called
she asked me if i wanted to eat
i said yes but i was lazy to cook
so i asked her if she could cook for me
and she said okay
yahoo thanks!!!
lol

went over to eat after i took bath
she cooked fried rice
it was yummy
thanks xw
and cindy;)

chatted, ate then chatted again
was halfway eating

then

suddenly

people came in from another door
with cakes and happy birthday song!

another surprise!!!
lol

2 cakes,
1 for me
another 1 for jasmin;)
jasmin's birthday is tomorrow 070909!

edmund, alfred and carolyn came all the way from clayton
wa thanks so much!
thanks to laila and sergio as well!

i turned to xh and said
hey you lied!!!
you said sen ming will wait for us at the bus stop
[we will be going to the city]

he laughed and said
everyone lied
everyone knew but was pretending

lol!!!

went to the city in the evening
we played games during the 1 hour train
took pictures of funny faces of the losers
lol!!!
[check it out in fb]

had steamboat for dinner
ai teng came;)
i miss you!
lol
food was delicious

later
we went to crown
drank
i had 4 tequila shots
xw got a little drunk
carolyn was drunk!
;)


ran to catch the 0013 am train
and found out it was 0032 am

breathed in and out
breatheless
lol

we reached berwick at 01 something am
stopped by the petrol station to get some breads

a cold night


I had a great birthday!!!

thanks to all of my friends again;)

now, dizzy

21st Part I

Yesterday 050909 was my 21st birthday

040909 i got a parcel from dear madeline
my birthday present!!!
keep it first

went to life group at night
thanks to the brothers and sisters who celebrated with me in life group
1040 something pm i reached home

took the parcel out
opened the box
3 presents and a card!!!;)
was so eager to open the presents but i waited until 050909
as dear madeline said so

11 something pm xw came over to my flat
went in to cindy's room right opposite mine
i knew they wanted to do something

normally xw doesn't come to our flat

1130 pm past xw came in to my room
we talked
she said stomachache
she said heartache
i knew she was waiting for the time to pass
she said she was lazy to go back
i wanted to say don't pretend;)
but one thing i didn't know
she was nervous

i heard messages on her phone
few minutes before my birthday
silent mode but i heard vibration;)
okay what were you all going to do
i was nervous too
but nothing at all compared with xw

0000 am
xw switched off the light
okay i heard birthday song
i saw them!!!
yup my close friends
xh with his camera
then i covered myself with my blanket
lol

put the blanket on my bed again

then i saw people
oh no who were they?!!!
sen ming said everyone came
oh no who?!!!
i saw a bunch of people outside my room watching me!!!
this time seriously
oh no!!!!!

they were my friends
those who stay on campus
so many of them

my face heated up
i knew it turned red
i didn't know how to react
so surprised
yup that was a huge present!!!;)

thanks again everyone for the surprise
for making effort to come at the cold night
for the prayers
for everything
so touched;)


went over to xw's flat
ate cake
chatted
laughed

thanks to the international calls
thanks to the international messages
thanks to those local as well;)
thanks dear madeline for calling
so long since i heard your voice again
you are all the time busy
i am all the time missing you
please don't be so busy
lol

went back to my room at 1 something am
the presents!!!
i opened the card first
i miss your handwriting
i opened the presents one by one
;)
;)
;)
i love it my dear;)
thanks lots i seriously miss you


replied messages in my phone
slept at 3 something am

can't sleep lol


to be continued.....

woke up at 10 something
supposed to do assignment today

looked at the assignment question
looked at the lecture notes
browsed through text book

yawns

ended up lying on the bed again

十二点三十三
不想睡
盯着电脑
等待什么?

最近我是怎么了
心
淡淡的
心情
淡淡的

对人对事也变得不耐烦
真搞不懂自己
闷了
累了
或。。
我不懂


天气渐渐的变热了
怎么我的心变冷了?

神啊求你引导我
求你充实我
别让我一直活在过去

毕竟
过去是不会再出现的现实

I am back again
am I?

if you have noticed
I've edited some posts
and deleted some
they just don't look good


It's week 7 now!
time flies doesn't it
at least i realize that time passes
unlike in KL i always don't notice it

just handed in an assignment today
6 more coming

after class i went to xw's room and she was blogging
so it reminded me i haven't been blogging for ages
that's why i'm here now

how have i been?
classes, assignments, eat, sleep, skip classes, play
is that considered good?
okay good since i'm not sick in melbourne at this time lol;)
but i miss malaysia
i miss food
i miss entertainment
i miss my friends

Finally
exam is over

my brain was merely exam's over this morning
then only i realized that it means another semester is over
time passes so fast don't you think so
[when i know that time passes but don't realize it]
does this actually make sense ?

Anyway
a good thing once exam and a semester had ended is that
when i reached home and looked at the books and notes around
i felt no more connected with them.
The books and notes released me so i am free !
Even if i put effort in the self prepared notes
i'm glad that i don't have to touch them anymore.
Poor notes- i hope they don't mind if i'm going to dump them soon >.<

Well this semester has been good
despite some changes in relation to people i meet, religion, the way i live, engaging in more activities and so forth ..
i learned and is grateful to all that had happened ;)

By the way it's late ! early ?
5.31 a.m. at the moment.
Em i should be sleeping ..
in fact i just came back an hour ago from singing k at Amp Square.
[just thought of blogging before i lost ideas about what i want to write ..]

Will be going back to my hometown on Sunday and i haven't started packing yet.
Headache, how to pack ? >.<

Editing some blog posts soon as they can't be viewed and it's getting messy here !
zzz

Exam mode

5 more days to Malaysian Corporate Governance exam
8 to Employment Law
9 to Organizational Behavior
and
12 to International Business
!!!

I can't wait to finish exam soon
12 days seem very fast
but the studying process is suffering
can't even do things that i want to
‘BOUND BY TIME’
notes & textbooks in front of me everyday!
don't know how much did i absorb
tiring

Lots of studying
but
not so much of studying also
i still go out a lot!
and i still want to go out
I want to go out to breathe the fresh air!
then i want to go for a run
my brain is exhausted!
but ‘nobody to go with’
i suppose nobody wants to go for a run with me also
they either think that that is ridiculous or
they don't do exercises
WHY!
okay fine
everybody is in exam mode [study only]

救救我!!!

一整个星期
一直一直忙
唔, 救救我。。
快喘不过气呢
明天
后天
大后天
噢。。
我真的快倒了
其实不够睡
加上压力
难怪

好累好累
一大堆事情等着我
真的
没力气
考试
也快到
时间却难追

最近
连吃饭也没时间
肚子也没力气叫
糟
真的
糟

唔
头脑
眼睛
手
脚
连心
也全累了

连读书也想吐
疯了

Study!

These few days i was busy studying
the other day when i arranged study schedule
then only i realized i have a lot of syllabus to cover
then i realized time is not at all sufficient
unless i manage to study more than i have arranged everyday
or else i won't be able to finish lots more!
but everyday is already packed
how am i going to do more?!

4th day of positioning myself in study mode
until now i still cannot study more than i have arranged
18 days to exam

i am chasing time to do the impossible!
God
please give me strength!

i will be busy the following weeks
no time to blog

Restore me!

Finally i am free from assignments!
after so long
you know these 15 days
i can feel that my body has gone really weak
lack of sleep
lack of exercise
lack of everything
glad that everything is over now
at least i can rest a little while

How long shall i rest to restore my energy?
exam is coming soon
these few days i hardly can concentrate in lectures
furthermore have to start revising for finals d
but i am still tired
perhaps i shall sleep 1 day 24 hours first!

Anyway i won't be resting long
time doesn't allow me to do so
my textbooks are all new
means that i never touch them at all
exaggerating
anyway really besides attending lectures and tutorials hardly can revise whatever thing
it is always like that!
is it i played too much?
or it is like that?

Tired
God!!!
restore me!!!
restore my energy!!!

爸妈妹妹要来了!

唔
该写什么
不想提 assignment
不是做到 frustrated 啦
这几天进度还不错
只不过对这个字厌倦了

爸妈和妹妹星期五会来 KL
我还想
我有时间见你们吗?
看 assignment 的进度
还可以的
所以
星期六我和哥就会找他们咯;)
只不过不过夜了
我还很忙

妈还叫我带 assignment 去做好了
我说。。怎么带???

我做 assignment
满地都是书
乱七八糟的
嘻嘻
没那么夸张

嗯
期待见你们呢
我蛮想念一家人一起吃饭的
虽然大妹妹没来
可还是期待

顺便出去透透气

该去睡了
明天上早的

我真的快要疯了

结果 5am 才睡
今早 10am 起
终于交了 assignment

刚才跟 XW 他们聊了一下
我一直 complain 太多 assignment
我真的快要疯了
Javier 说我看起来还好
哈哈
表面是
我说
我真的快要疯了!

昨晚还能睡五个小时
算好
4pm 回来躺了两小时
午觉
竟然睡不着!
现在头晕
那些比我睡得更少的
你们是怎么撑的
我真的。。无话可说

可是 my advice
可以的话
还是尽量早点睡呢
经常熬夜不好
尤其是女生
超过十二点睡失去的睡眠
是你怎么睡午觉也补不回的

其实连我自己
也整天过十二点才睡

不过还是
大家尽量早点睡吧!!!

我发现
最近写 blog 常出现三个恐怖的字
就是

am, pm 还有 assignment!!!!!
嘻嘻
没吓到你们吧?
对我而言真的好恐怖哦。。

还有两个 assignment 一个 presentation
我真的快要疯了!

Employment law assignment!

One whole day assignment!
i am going to faint
i have been in front of my laptop since 9 am
now is 00.08 am
well don't count i went to eat, toilet, stand up a while whatever

This is so tiring!
and i'm not even sure if i have been writing the correct things
500 words to go
and FOOTNOTES!
and re-check
so many more
i am so tired
NOW

Shall i sleep early
or
shall i not

shall i continue
shall i stop

Dilemma

Now is 00.12 am
time is running out!

又一天

今天很累
干 footnotes
本来昨晚要干完
结果不会做
问谁也不懂

有谁可以告诉我真正 law 的 references 怎么做？

今早七点五十起床
以为 refer 下不同的 examples 就会懂怎么做
结果不同的 example 不同的做法
真搞得我头昏昏

算了吧
乱做

伤脑筋
结果
现在头痛
糟
今晚又不能做什么了
都是 law 惹的祸

叹气

剩下的三个 assignment 也超伤脑筋的
救命啊!


十一点五十五赶完 footnotes
十二点上 CG tutorial
今天心情不是很好

昨晚 Madeline 打给我
懂你面对着一些事情
心疼你却不在你身边
耳边的声音好像你在旁边却隔着那么远的距离
好让我想
要怎么去更关心那么遥远的朋友

只好


“
你要坚强
我也一样


九点十九
没吃晚餐
不饿

静静的

终于完了 CG assignment
只剩 footnotes 今晚再做吧
来着还有很多事情要完成
还算好
因为还没有很压力
晚上睡眠不足
上课回来还会睡一致两个小时
才继续做 assignment

生活变得规律些也好
这样我不觉得我在浪费时间
时间多么珍贵
我又怎么舍得把它无意义的流逝
虽然偶尔也会不知不觉的那样

静静的坐着
静静的做 assignment
连我的周围也是静静的
这段时间都这样
一切
都静了起来


静静的偶然
我总是回忆过去
也只好静静的思念


听说两点会停电
我还是赶快出门
不然 lift 没 function
我就要走楼梯了
去 monash
继续做 assignment
等下四点上课

留给你的窗

听了感觉很悲伤的一首歌
伍思凯的
留给你的窗

不是要影响你们的心情 ok

只是觉得蛮痛心的歌

顶着蓝色月亮
走在回忆长廊
那一样的月光
照过我们紧握的手掌
问题没有答案
转了多少个弯
你还签了名在我心上
不能遗忘
就算时间能冲淡了忧伤
想对你说的再也无法讲
淡淡心酸
我的心还为你留一扇窗
等你想起我回来看一看
自由属于你
爱你就该放手让你去想去的地方
怎么能相信我们已走散
不会再停站
希望已风干
一样的月光
冷冷的照在
两个人不重叠的路上
你的心是否也有一扇窗
寂寞时也会抬头看一看
当时的月光
后来是否也出现在你想念的心上
像我一样　
无处可藏
蓝色月光　
淡淡心酸
---

真么样
是不是很悲伤?

Busy

Assignment due dates!
7 may- corporate governance 2500 words
11 may- employment law 3000 words
18 may- organisational behaviour 2000 words
18 may- international business 4000 words
19 may- organisational behaviour presentation
!!!

Exam dates!
12 june- corporate governance
15 june- employment law
16 june- organisational behaviour
19 june- international business

I think i won't be free until after exam!

faint

时间过得真快
真喘不过气
还有那么多 assignments 呢
都还没有开始做
更不可能去 revise for final exams 了
好像什么都来不及的

最近发现
人与人走得太近
真的难免会有摩擦
虽然并不是表面的

也没办法啊
只不过为了完成 work
‘group work’
我想
我要多学习
怎么 work in groups 呢
或者
没判断别人之前
先自我反省
是我
不能够接受别人做事的方法吧

这几天
大家都在忙
一起加油啦!
累
嗯
习惯就好

Another post

Today i feel much better
not so sick like previous days
went to see doctor yesterday morning
so currently recovering

This morning went to uni at 9 something to discuss CG
then attended Employment Law lecture at 12 to 2pm.
Sleepy,
was fishing during the lecture already.

Then skipped OB lecture to do the slides for CG.
Finally finished at 5 something.
Tonight still need to prepare
as,
tomorrow is presentation!

Normally
i am quite excited with presentations
but this time no feeling at all
probably i am too tired to feel anything.
Or because it is group presentation
so don't need to be so nervous.
or..

I thought first half semester i was too restless
so i told myself second half semester i have to fully occupy myself
with studies and assignments.
Then i realized
too occupied with studies and assignments tend to make me numb with feelings
because i become too tired to feel anything

Well life is not merely studies and assignments
at least not until i am numb with feelings!

生病了

昨晚没睡好
生病了

翻来翻去
身体很热
还一直咳

脑里想着，

*星期二有 CG presentation 呢
我这样的状况怎么 present 啊?
哈哈可能就这样等 vern 和 javier present 好了, 我做 slides
想太多
到时候
可能我以 ok 了

*突然好想 madeline 呢
你在就好
晚上一直咳你一定会起来看看我吧
你在
就会帮我抹抹身体
摸摸我的额头
然后
你总是在我身边又睡着了
好让我来帮你盖被呢

昨天跟一个也在 brisbane 的朋友聊天
他说最近天气变冷了
想到 madeline 你也在哪里
是否有好好照顾自己?
这几天没有跟你聊天
我们
都在忙呢

嗯
我要赶快好起来呢
生病不好过
(也许有 madeline 就会好过一些吧 >.<)

God is love

一生中寻寻觅觅不知道要怎么过

只知道我并不是一个人的活
无论我做错了什么
无论我面对着什么
你总与你宽容双手拥抱着我

一生中风风雨雨围绕着我不屑
有了你我还需要惧怕些什么
困难总有你来作伴
未来总有你的陪伴
永远不离不去的你
是我良友

友- 梦想faith乐

;)

Mid-semester break

Mid-semester break 剩一天!

Actually wanted to start my assignments,

but,

玩了一整个假期

went to Genting on Thursday and came back on Friday
So,
played one whole Thursday, outdoor and indoor theme parks!

实在太好玩了
很久没有那么刺激

尤其是烦恼多的时候
趁机喊个够
这样心情就会好多了

激烈的风吹走烦恼
什么都不必想
尽情享受


昨晚去了一个很 beautiful 的地方



很美吧!
跟一班教会的朋友去的

去的组要目的是 water baptism 和庆祝 first quarter ended 了
不是我被 baptized 啦 but 是几位弟兄姐妹

第一次看到 water baptism
哇
有一股感动的感觉

哈哈我跟 Ah Leoi 说好下一次到我们
这点我们就要祷告和努力咯


Baptize 完了我超级兴奋又好笑的方式跳了下水
嗯
真丢脸可是总是做了才发觉丢脸

水里的世界真爽
更何况是跟一班可爱的朋友们
是另一种忘记烦恼的方式


可以看得出这假期没有白费哦
可是 enjoy 过后就要开始努力了
希望这次可以用心去做每一件事
尤其是将要来临很多的 assignments!

矛盾

我
一直包容
只为了你开心

你
却说辛苦
因为我为了包容你
没有直话直说

我有不满
还一直包容
我知道这样
你辛苦

我说
亲爱的朋友
你
为了我
我又怎么会不懂
我
又何曾不是
为了你

我
不过
只想对你更好不埋怨。。。
却
辛苦了你

不再包容
你
会否开心?
我呢?

退一步
海阔天空?

愿上帝引导。。。

该死的温柔

Back to kl the second day
im bored
what can i do?

Btw, i love this song..;)

该死的温柔,

updating soon..

I don't want to stop

Sigh
...
...
why am i getting so bored and frustrated?
do i have nothing else to do other than fetching my sisters?

I just don't want to stop...
to stop and think
because i think too much...

I guess i need a longer time
to adapt to my life nowadays and yet to come

It must be the distance apart...
it must be the sweet memory
that trigger my brain
to think

I don't want to stop
i can do anything
as long as i stop to think

I guess i need somebody else...

Sigh
...
...

原谅深厚的友谊

是深厚的友谊，所以重视。
是重视，所以在乎。
是在乎，所以要求。
是要求，所以期望。
是期望，所以等待。
是等待，所以期求。
是期求，所以失望。
是失望，所以难过。
是难过，所以责备。
是责备，所以让你伤心。
是让你伤心，所以惭愧。
。。。

原谅我，
都是我的错。。。

原谅我让你伤心。
原谅我责备。
原谅我难过。
原谅我失望。
原谅我期求。
原谅我等待。
原谅我期望。
原谅我要求。
原谅我在乎。
原谅我重视。
。。。

请求你原谅，
原谅深厚的友谊。。。

思念已经无处可归,

我
错
吗
?

Happy New Year 2009

Happy New Year 2009!

这首歌不错

屋顶的天空是我们的
放学后夕阳也都会是我们的
不会再仰慕更多了

唱一首属于我们的歌
让我们的伤都慢慢慢的愈合
明天我又会是全新的
青春是手牵手坐上了
都不回头的火车
总有一天我们都老了
不会遗憾就OK了
伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐
我和你都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢

自己和自己打一架了
想都想不通反正就是这样了
不会再流泪更多了
有多少错误重蹈覆辙
有多少苦痛还不是都过来了
想起来甚至还会笑呢 OH~HO
青春是人生的实验课
错也错得很值得
就算某天唱起这首歌
眼眶会有一点湿了
伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐
我和你都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢

伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐
我和你都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
谁说这样不伟大呢