最近赶 assignment
本来想快点做完
然后做一些自己想做的事情
可是
心
还是会不想做
脑袋
它告诉我它很累
唔
真没力气
我只想出去走走

assignment
赶是会赶完
只是
我赶不上时间


有时候
我多么想去珍惜时间的每一分每一秒
却发现
我总是被时间拖着走
还来不及完成
本来说好要完成的东西
我
却被时间拖走了

时间
就这样
破碎了
就在我面前

剩下的是
我永远都捡不起来的
时间碎片

exam timetable is out!
heart beating
fast
why?



Managerial Communication then Strategic Management then Introduction to Tourism then Marketing Law

...

下午
睡了四小时
很累
这几天
睡眠不足

唔
明天就 week 9 了
exam timetable 星期四出
这么快!!! 是我第一个反应
其实
不会快
都说是 week 9 了

快的只是时间

每过一天
我就少了一天
这
并不重要
重要的是我怎么走过每一天


曾经
我以为
努力
是为了保证自己的前程
是为了做一个成功的人
是为了实现梦想
人都以为这样人生就会有意义
我
也曾是这么想的
我想
人都是这么想的吧

然后才发现
这些
都是自私的
人生自私的意义

人啊人
什么时候才觉悟
跟随上帝才是人生的意义啊

人都以为
不做坏事就 okay 了
我也曾是这么想的
原来
人
还要做对人

这世界
是邪恶的
不是能够 survive 在这邪恶的世界里最重要
我们还要懂得分辨对于错
。。。


我的每一天
要为了上帝而活!!!

我
恋上回忆?

21st Part II

Birthday part II;)


yesterday i woke up at 11 something am???
can't remember

then did some stuff

xw called
she asked me if i wanted to eat
i said yes but i was lazy to cook
so i asked her if she could cook for me
and she said okay
yahoo thanks!!!
lol

went over to eat after i took bath
she cooked fried rice
it was yummy
thanks xw
and cindy;)

chatted, ate then chatted again
was halfway eating

then

suddenly

people came in from another door
with cakes and happy birthday song!

another surprise!!!
lol

2 cakes,
1 for me
another 1 for jasmin;)
jasmin's birthday is tomorrow 070909!

edmund, alfred and carolyn came all the way from clayton
wa thanks so much!
thanks to laila and sergio as well!

i turned to xh and said
hey you lied!!!
you said sen ming will wait for us at the bus stop
[we will be going to the city]

he laughed and said
everyone lied
everyone knew but was pretending

lol!!!

went to the city in the evening
we played games during the 1 hour train
took pictures of funny faces of the losers
lol!!!
[check it out in fb]

had steamboat for dinner
ai teng came;)
i miss you!
lol
food was delicious

later
we went to crown
drank
i had 4 tequila shots
xw got a little drunk
carolyn was drunk!
;)


ran to catch the 0013 am train
and found out it was 0032 am

breathed in and out
breatheless
lol

we reached berwick at 01 something am
stopped by the petrol station to get some breads

a cold night


I had a great birthday!!!

thanks to all of my friends again;)

now, dizzy

21st Part I

Yesterday 050909 was my 21st birthday

040909 i got a parcel from dear madeline
my birthday present!!!
keep it first

went to life group at night
thanks to the brothers and sisters who celebrated with me in life group
1040 something pm i reached home

took the parcel out
opened the box
3 presents and a card!!!;)
was so eager to open the presents but i waited until 050909
as dear madeline said so

11 something pm xw came over to my flat
went in to cindy's room right opposite mine
i knew they wanted to do something

normally xw doesn't come to our flat

1130 pm past xw came in to my room
we talked
she said stomachache
she said heartache
i knew she was waiting for the time to pass
she said she was lazy to go back
i wanted to say don't pretend;)
but one thing i didn't know
she was nervous

i heard messages on her phone
few minutes before my birthday
silent mode but i heard vibration;)
okay what were you all going to do
i was nervous too
but nothing at all compared with xw

0000 am
xw switched off the light
okay i heard birthday song
i saw them!!!
yup my close friends
xh with his camera
then i covered myself with my blanket
lol

put the blanket on my bed again

then i saw people
oh no who were they?!!!
sen ming said everyone came
oh no who?!!!
i saw a bunch of people outside my room watching me!!!
this time seriously
oh no!!!!!

they were my friends
those who stay on campus
so many of them

my face heated up
i knew it turned red
i didn't know how to react
so surprised
yup that was a huge present!!!;)

thanks again everyone for the surprise
for making effort to come at the cold night
for the prayers
for everything
so touched;)


went over to xw's flat
ate cake
chatted
laughed

thanks to the international calls
thanks to the international messages
thanks to those local as well;)
thanks dear madeline for calling
so long since i heard your voice again
you are all the time busy
i am all the time missing you
please don't be so busy
lol

went back to my room at 1 something am
the presents!!!
i opened the card first
i miss your handwriting
i opened the presents one by one
;)
;)
;)
i love it my dear;)
thanks lots i seriously miss you


replied messages in my phone
slept at 3 something am

can't sleep lol


to be continued.....

woke up at 10 something
supposed to do assignment today

looked at the assignment question
looked at the lecture notes
browsed through text book

yawns

ended up lying on the bed again

十二点三十三
不想睡
盯着电脑
等待什么?

最近我是怎么了
心
淡淡的
心情
淡淡的

对人对事也变得不耐烦
真搞不懂自己
闷了
累了
或。。
我不懂


天气渐渐的变热了
怎么我的心变冷了?

神啊求你引导我
求你充实我
别让我一直活在过去

毕竟
过去是不会再出现的现实

I am back again
am I?

if you have noticed
I've edited some posts
and deleted some
they just don't look good


It's week 7 now!
time flies doesn't it
at least i realize that time passes
unlike in KL i always don't notice it

just handed in an assignment today
6 more coming

after class i went to xw's room and she was blogging
so it reminded me i haven't been blogging for ages
that's why i'm here now

how have i been?
classes, assignments, eat, sleep, skip classes, play
is that considered good?
okay good since i'm not sick in melbourne at this time lol;)
but i miss malaysia
i miss food
i miss entertainment
i miss my friends